My devotion to John

My man, my god( really god is the man up there), my idol, my hero, my bff(besides mia), and my inspriation is John Wayne. There is no way to descirbe how much i love him. It just makes my day. At this moment i have most all of his movies except a few but i will get them soon. He makes my day ever single day. I just look at my calender of him and just sparkle.

To go back into history. John Wayne was born May 26, 1907 and died on June 11, 1979 from stomach cancer. Throughout his career he made over 200 films. Mostly westerns and war pictures. John is the reason why i fell in love with westerns. It is super hard for me to pick a fav but it is The Searchers. Made in 1955 and reslased in 1956. It was directed by John Ford and starried wayne, jeffery hunter, vera miles, and ward bond. Wayne plays Ethan Edwards a racist against native americans esically comanches. One night while helping a neighbor whos cows were taken and killed by comanches, ethan's brother, nephrew, and sister-in-law are raped, beaten, killed by comanches.( they dont show this onscreen, but u can imagine what the comanches did. Comanches are know as the most violent native americans). Led by Cheif Scar, the two nieces are kidnapped. One his killed. Ethan and Martin Pawley(played by jeffery hunter. martin was found years ago in a sagebush, when his parents were slaugtherd by Scar) begin a seven year search. Martin soon realizes that Ethan is fantic racist and his going to kill his niece(Debbie played by natalie wood) becuase she has become a squa. If u want to know the rest watch it plz or just let me know and i will tell u.

Also my prayers go out to Hati. My thoughts and prayers are with u ppl.

hot men i like

everyone that knows me, knows that i old movies. espciacally westerns. I luv the 30's, 40's 50's 60's 70's movies. To me they are the best movies every made. now i could list and list and list all favoites but that would take to long. Now watching this moives, hot men i like come about. There are so many hot to me. now i when u ppl read this and see this pictures, u might think they are ugly. but whatever i hope all like them! oh btw the first is my fav

The begining of a new semster and diet

Today i finished finals. Yes!!! is all i can say. Now i only have one semster of high school left. Which i am glad and sad at the same time. I am glad becuase it means i am taking a new step in my life. I am sad because i will miss my whole entire class. Even the ones i hardly talk to, i will miss. These past four years have been because of only them. Even i was never plzed with nd, i still enjjoy my fellow students. They made the place great to me. I just hope i can remain in contact with every single one of them. I hope to see all of them at our class reunions. I want to see how sucessful they are, their children, and see what life brings them. When i head off to college, i will wake up and go to my first, i will think that i am seeing my regualr classmates but i wont, that will make me sad. Becuase i luv u all.

Diet! Oh how i hate that word. It makes me cringe and sweat. But it has to be done. I am starting one and will succed with this one because i am going to prom and need to look good lol. But also for health and well being. I know i will succed with this one. I know i will look great at the end. I will just need everyones support and hopefully i will get it. Let the diet commence.

And a big opps on my part. I forgot a cat yesterday, yes i did and i am sorry. So a big shout out to MICKEL number 43. Daughter of Adam, granddaugter of rosco, great-gradndaughter of grandma and mother of her big boy faith.

Feelings and Cats

Today is tuesday. I am in the media center studying for my chem final i have tommorrow. I am so worried and nervous about it. Their is so much information but hopefully i will do well. All the other finals have been great and easy surprising.

Right i feel tried and have this sick gut feeling. I dont know how to explain it. i just want sleep is the only thing i can say right now. I still think some people are mad at me and are ignoring me. i feel it. I just want people to execpt me for the way i am. it thats simple. A five day weekend is cumin up for me and i cant wait. Am i doing anything? no. but i will still enjoy it.

Cats-a small domesticated carnivorous mammal with soft fur, a short snout, and retractile claws. It is widely kept as a pet or for catching mice, and many breeds have been developed.

Thats the defintation of them. I just can say how much i love them. I have about 42 roughly now. I just reconted and i dont have over 45 anymore. Which is kinda relief. All my cats are named and loved by me. I take so good care of them because they are second famiy. I dont know wut i would do without them. Each of them are speical in a speical way. People ask which one is my fav? i cant answer that because they are all my fav. I luv them so much.

A shout out to them:

1. Scout

2.Merlin

3.Lolly

4.Nina

5.Sparky

6.Smokey

7.Crosby

8.Astaire

9. Sintara

10.Kelly

11.Romeo

12.Juliet

13.Pritirisha

14.Cole

15.Chalra

16.Han

17.Sami

18.Midnight

19.Chris

20.Pam

21.Junior

22.Faith

23.Bobby Sue

24.Patrick Ann

25.Maxine

26.Harry

27.Geogregina

28.Oliva

29.Olive

30.Ria

31.Curt

32.Bonnie

33.Cylde

34.Summer

35.Winter

36.Draco

37.Grandma

38.Pouche

39.Brown Kitty

40.New

41.Blacky

42.Sweets

Sunday Times!

Well its Sunday. Sunday is post to be a day of rest. But it ain"t for me. Finals start tomorrow which means my week is going to suck but oh well. So today i have been working on my study guide and will contiune studying after i am done with this blog. lol

Football Sunday

Today the ravens won. Which i am glad because i hate the patriots. The cowboys won. I just love the ccowboys. The jets won. WHich i am pissed about. So right now i have no idea who i want for the superbowl but i will know next weekend.

Overall a good weekend. A little confused and sad about saturday night. I admit i can be selfish at all times. I luv this people to death and consider them my best friends but wonder why i was invited to their party???? Everybody else, why not me and my parents? lol did we do something wrong?

Final Week

Well final week has come upon me fast, i must say. To be honest i am really nervous. Super nervous and scared. I am always this way. In my brain i forget everthing when i go take the final so thats why i am always screwed over. I think i am not a good test taker. I finally have come to the realization. I have 7 classes but only have to take five. Thank god have mercy.

Personally i am not really that popular are try to be. I am just simple and i dont mind not being popular. But this past week i have invited to two parties. Holy shit!! i am shocked and also very gratuful. I think i know which i am going to and cant wait.

I just wanna thank the people who are nice to me. Y'all really make my day.

Dinner Time

Around here at my house its dinner time. Tonight we are going to donas esters because we dont feel like cooking. That always happens for some odd reason. A funny thing to be talking about food when i gave my socail justice final today. I talked about Ag Against hunger. I feel very confident that i good grade and that my speech was well done. I learned a very interseting quote today that i want to share" How much u luv is how much u luv the person who least like"

Farmville. An iterseting topic i find myself blogging about. I just luv it so much. IT so entertaining. I just loving the farm coins and crops.

Hair. Today i had over 30 ppl ask me did u dye ur hair? Well ppl I DID NOT DYE MY HAIR. THE END

oh and a shout to maria p TEN POINT S TO GRIFFYDONER. oops spelled that wrong

Last but not least a shout out to katherine stevens. Thanks for inspring me to begin this blog and also becoming my first follower.

The day has begun

It is thursday. One more day till the weekend. This makes me very happy. I always love the weekends because i have no scool and i get some alone time. Maybe thats why i like being a only child sometimes. I get so much privacy and i enjoy 100%. The only bad part about being an only child is that i have siblings. Why some people might hate there slibings, i miss having some. I dont know why but i did wish i had a big brother sometimes. Actually a couple big brothers.

So thinking of something random is child names. For some reason i like child names. I like all the whole naming process for some reason. A funny thing is that i dont want kids buy then i do want kids part. I am just afraid of the giving birth part becauase its going to hurt like hell. I just know it will. BUt i want boys. Actually five boys to be exact. And here are their names

Boys

1. Ringo Wayne

2. Cole Jacob

3. Sky

4.J.T. Roy

5. Hunter Holiday

If and accident happens and girls come out here their names

Girls

1.Cheyenne

2. Dakota

3. Shasta

4. Marley

5. Harley

Night Time

Right now its 8:04 pm. I am turning on the tv to watch the people choice awards. I find that by doing this i am a huge procraster. I need to be doing my math and chem because I need to but i dont care about them or schoool at all. I dont, i find it like jail instead of a learning enivorment.

This past few days people have been asking me about winter ball. if i am going??? my anwser is no. I tell them i hate dresses and makeup and that i have others things to do. I tell them the same thing for prom when they ask if i am going to that. I am so scarred to tell them the truth. That i want to go so badly. I wanted to be homecoming queen and prom queen. There i said it. I keep thinking about what a loner i am. I wiill be the only one home and bored to death. I dont go because of the thing i fear more than spiders and snakes, Boys. I am scarred to death. I have had so many bad experiences that i am scarred to death to be around. I start going into panic attacks. I enivison me( in my current body state) in a dress. Them starting to look and stare, and saying look at the fat ugly bitch. Them saying my face is ugly and digusting. And then throwing food at me and saying eat it u fat pig. Then just constaly laughing at me and throwing up at the sight at me. My self-estseem is down to a fat blank zero. I just can seem to bring it up.

If i was to go to prom or winterball. I envison this if a nice plain black dress with sleeves and full. Then some nice cowboy boots and my black felt cowboy hat. Thats the way i would go. to me that is simple enough for me. I may not rodeo or barrel rance or do 4-h, but i am a cowgirl at heart. I love the west. TO me i am a tomboy but also i am a woman at the same time.

The Start of Something New

Today is 1/06/2010. Today i start my blog. It is the start of something new. I never have done this before. So i am trying something differnt. I am not a writer or a person who express feelings very much. I cant spell at all and find it hard to write. But hopefully i will do well with this and people will read it. I dont know what i plan to accomplish but i hope i will prevail. To be honest i dont even know if i will keep this blog. i might forget about it. lol

Right now i am in math class doing this thing. I expemted my math final so i dont have to worry about anything. I will be back tommorrow.